So life is slowly starting to settle into a new 'normal'. Nephew Joseph has returned to his family in the south. I still look for him riding around the cul de sac when I drive down the street. Gabe finally has a room to sleep in. I'm bunking in Rocky's room for obvious reasons.
Just for the record Dickidoo is not leaving me because of another woman. He's leaving me because our marriage has failed. He is in love with another woman because he no longer loves me. If he still loved me this would not be an issue. I'm not taking this as well as it may appear. Believe me, I had my 2 day long pity party and still have relapses on a daily basis. In my mind I say things that are neither graceful nor amusing. If I had a genie there would be two new bull frogs in the pond. My mother drummed it in to my head 'if you don't have anything nice to say, don't say it at all!' The funny thing is now that we have accepted the inevitable we have a better relationship than we have in quite some time. Perhaps we were just meant to be a young couple and then later on just friends. At any rate, without speaking for him, I personally have been happier since this all came out in the open than I have been in 5 years and that alone says more than words could.
At work I am preparing to celebrate my 1st Anniversary at my new position (today, yay!)... and also hope to make my 100th 'stop' (I'm at 99). In anticipation of the event I went sniffing through the laundry pile to find something decent to wear on this special occasion. I found the pinstriped slacks that I wore the other day and shook them out. Then to my horror I spotted a big gaping hole in the back of the pants, not in the front where the zipper should be. Did I really wear these pants to work with a split in the seam? I had calico polka dot panties on that day... Oh Lord, I hope I never know.
As for future plans, well I guess it's back to the drawing board. My 50 Year bucket list has taken a new direction. Gone are the mandolin lessons, the flight in the hot air balloon and the fishing trip in Alaska. Realistically speaking I think just being out and on my own two feet will be a good start for now. Starting over at the age of 50 is a bit scary but I'll still have my best friend (who is VERY lucky that I don't have a genie otherwise he would be croaking quite happily next to his sexy little amphibian sweetheart out by the pond down the way).
Song of the Day: I Was Already Gone, by Sugarland.
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so sorry to hear all of this
I'm very sorry to hear of this major upset in your life. I hope it'll all come out for the best.
You're in thoughts at this time.
Guido
I think your sense of humor has saved you. I guess I mean your sense of the absurd. How amazing you are. Your chin is up and you are looking to the future. Awesome.
I thought you lived in Colorado? I saw a lady at Walmart with pinstriped pants on with a hole in them...I think that was last week. were you in NY? I didn't think so!
I am so sorry. sometimes life/people throw us a curve...then we see what we are made of.
xo
Sorry to hear of this. I went thru the same thing in 1981, when mine left with my best friend. Actually they were the other couple in our life. The guys worked together, we all went camping together, etc. (You get the picture) Then my Mr X and the other guy's Mrs X decided they "loved" each other and off they went. Leaving their respective spouses and 4 kids in the dust. It hurt like crazy. I wasn't working at the time & was in no shape emotionally to even look for a job but eventually it all worked out. I retired 2½ yrs ago from the job I finally got in January of 1982. In looking back~she did me a big fat favor. I've made a ton of great friends over the years that I would have never known if he'd not left. She's had to put up with his drinking, his horrible temper~all of it. The other guy is happily married to a gal I introduced him to. But my heart aches for you....no one should have to go thru times like this. Just remember to get up every morning and put a smile on your face, no matter how hard it is. You will survive and you'll be a stronger person for it. And don't ever discount someone new coming into your life & loving you like you deserve. It may happen when you least expect it. Best wishes...Linda in Washington state
I am rooting for you, and sending you hugs over the internet. I guess as the old saying go if it does not kill you it makes you stronger (only thing is it hurts like hell to you get to the being stronger part.) I am glad you still have a sense of humor. I would make him sleep on the couch though and you keep your bed...lol
While you're saying a lot of mature things, and I'm honestly glad that you two have more of a sense of, okay, this is the new reality, we've gone through a lot can we at least be friendly? bit, really, it helps, yes, by golly, it still sucks. Even if I haven't been visiting blogs much lately meaning I've also missed yours, I do still care and hope you find a lot of support on here. I find it hard to go trashing someone, also, and that's actually okay (to not trash). So you have your first work anniversary, your 100th 'bust," and you WILL BE OKAY. One day at a time. Life changing events can be hell, and then can also be a second chance at your life. Or both. You will make it.
Another hug. Wish I had a magic wand. Heck, I wish that all the time around here!
{{{ Jody }}} u will be and always have been in my prayers...
be well...
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