Friday, August 26, 2011

PPTSD? (Parental Post Tramatic Stress Disorder)

As the mother of a soldier who was deployed in a war zone twice, I think I suffer from a different type of PTSD.  I never saw the horrors, and my son came back to me in one piece although he would never be the same~ but I myself had changed.  The months of staring at the computer screen, searching for the tiniest bit of information and yet hating to read it for fear of the worst.  Waiting for hours for the phone not to ring~ only to stare, frozen in my seat when it did.  Running to the window every time a car drove into the cul de sac, but not wanting to look in case it was a black government vehicle.  I can no longer watch war movies, not even my favorite Green Berets. And this video brought me to tears.  Loved it by the way, but I still cried.


1 comment:

martha alicia mendez cruz said...

those segments talk to my self for the experiences continue and feelings full.The sik of alzheimer is very dificult,so required a great value to attend her.for other side I can see the plenitude in your life,the expresion happy surfering the obstacules.Gad bleesing your mam an you baby.....have 57 years old lovely be grandma,some day.....