Wednesday, September 5, 2007

RAIN

It rained today, long and hard.  The raindrops pelted the rooftop and sounded like a timpani.

I cried along in harmony.

Its been a while since I last cried, I mean really truly cried, from the heart and gut... probably not since Gabe returned from Iraq.  These should be the happiest times of my life.  I'm a grandmother for the second time.  My children are healthy and happy.  My son survived the war in Iraq.  My Mama survived her own battle with cancer.  My husband and I survived each other.  I should be shouting for joy.

But instead I cried. 

My quilt was as wet as the ground outside.

The tears solved nothing.  I don't know when I will see either of my grandbabies.  My son is still going back to Iraq this year.  My Mama begins chemotherapy tomorrow.  I have a few more cobwebs... you know where... and I still don't have a camera.

But I sure feel better.  I feel like I can handle tomorrow and anything it has to throw at me.

More rain in the forecast.  That's okay.  The grass needs it, and so do I.

20 comments:

deshelestraci said...

Of course you cried.  Anyone would with all you have going on!  Blessings to you and yours!
Traci

princesssaurora said...

I am sorry about the cobwebs... give Dickidoo a nudge... you know how.  

I am sorry about not being able to see the grandbabies... it must be so hard.  Hopefully the girls and Art will maybe stay near?  I am praying for mom... I just know that she will be fine!

be well,
Dawn
http://journals.aol.com/princesssaurora/CarpeDiem/

sdoscher458 said...

Oh honey, I know the feeling. I miss my kids, grandkids the time that we have had together is precious. Maybe Momma needs to take a trip to where the grandbaby is I think she deserves it...and Dickidoo should let his camera go with her.. love you...
Sandi

pixiedustnme said...

Crying is certainly good for the soul.  Sometimes it just all crams up in one place and there's no other way for it to get out.  I'm sure there were just as many tears of joy as there were tears of apprehension and sadness.

glensfork4 said...

It's ok Jody...really...sometimes a great big cry is just what is needed.

Maybe you need to go see the grandbabies.....Prayers as always for Gabe.

Michele

plittle said...

  To quote the sign over John Laroquette's office door in some short-lived sitcom I can't remember the name of: "This is a dark ride." Tears are to be expected. Not always explained, but expected. You are OK.
-Paul
http://journals.aol.ca/plittle/AuroraWalkingVacation/

mpnaz58 said...

Sometimes we cry tears of joy, pain, sorrow, love...and we can't always differentiate.  We only know that we feel cleansed.  Knowing you are blessed only brings more tears.  Not knowing why, is ok.
xoxo ~Myra

redpoppy007 said...

I am sorry.  Hope things get better for you.

jckfrstross said...

you will be able to see them soon:)

Deb

lazarai said...

(((Dorn))),

Glad you got it out -- life can pile up sometimes. This too shall pass, as my mom always says. Hopefully, you'll see the babies soon. And your mom -- well, I just want to tell you that cancer IS survivable. My dad was diagnosed with large cell diffuse lymphoma 8 or 9 years ago -- we all panicked and worried and thought the worst. Dad went through chemotherapy and radiation....and is 86 and healthy as we speak!! He still works out daily. And the cancer has stayed away. Try not to worry - your mom is strong and will come through this okay.

Take care,
Carol

chat2missie said...

Every once in a while we just need a good cry!  I've had a few of those myself, and always feel better afterwards.
Missie

mumma4evr said...

tears are very good for many reasons.....especially for cleaning out the eyes and the brain!
Becky

tepenterprises said...

Does anyone care about the North American Union?  We will all be Mexicans before you know.

rbrown6172 said...

amazing how much better we can feel after a good cry. {{{dorn}}}  hope you have a blessed day.
gina

mutualaide said...

{{{{{{{{{{HUGS}}}}}}}}}}} If I could, I wave my magic wand ...

swmpgrly said...

A good cry is good for the soul

rdautumnsage said...

I think there is something in the air. I had my own cry fest earlier today. Tears are streams that flow from the river of our hearts with love. (Hugs) Indigo

cyn4mc2856 said...

Oh my, I've just introduced myself to your Journal.  What a great laugh for me.  I love it, so I'm putting you on my list and alerts.  I think I'm even going to turn my daughter [who's raising 3 kids] onto your Journal.

Keep up the good posts.  Oh and are there membership dues for the Dust Bunny club?  LOL

Cindy

hestiahomeschool said...

Oh, hugs to you....you have a lot to laugh about and a lot to cry about in your life...I was talking about Gabe not twenty minutes ago at a homeschool meeting. We were discussing the war and I said that while I am opposed to the war, there are people I love over there and that I pray for twice a day...

missheathyrmaree said...

I always feel better after a good cry.
The kind that make you wonder why you ever stopped crying, that is.
I'm glad that you feel better too :]