Thursday, July 13, 2006

DARK BLUES, and holiday d'jour

I had a nice chat with Gabe the other day.  My blues should have dissolved right then and there but if anything they've turned darker. His short note yesterday didn't help.  Its funny how weeks could go by without any contact from him when he lived in Kentucky and I never worried.  Now when I don't hear from him in a day I get nervous. 

My insomnia is back.  I can't sleep. I've tried staying up until I can barely keep my eyes open, and I fall into the bed in total exhaustion, but then I lay for hours staring at the insides of my eyelids.  Its not depression, and I'm not worried about anything.  Mostly I think its just sadness.  I think... I think I need to stop watching the news, I need to stop checking certain websites first thing in the morning and last thing at night.  I think I just need to have my son back in the states, safe and sound.  I'm so tired of the ugly reality of the world right outside of this little rose colored happy-bubble that surrounds me.  I'm tired of covering my eyes so I don't see what I don't want to accept. 

I need someone to fix the world so I can get some sleep.

Check my list a few entries back.  Today is National Fools Paradise Day.  Ha!  That's probably why I was given the day off.  I've about had it with stupid people.  I keep getting stuck at the customer service desk at work.  In my current frame of mind that is the worst place to put me.  Still, it would have been fun to wear a 'Have You Hugged A Fool Today?' tee-shirt and pass out balloons to all the 'fools' that cross my path. 

Tomorrow is National Nude Day.  I am taking donations from people who DON'T want me to celebrate this particular holiday.  And for those of you who are sitting there trying to imagine what I might look like in the nude, consider the Michelin Man with a farmer's tan, and that would be me.  Not something you'd want to see on a full stomach eh? (or even an empty one for that matter, although Dickidoo has said I'm sexy after a few shots of tequila). 

Donations can be sent to me care of this blog.


swmpgrly said...


princesssaurora said...

{{{ Dorn }}}

I wish I could chase your blues away... but since I can't I am sending you that heartfelt, mom to mom hug.

I think you and I should celebrate Nude day... screw em all if they can't take a joke!


be well,

mzgoochi said...

Dorn, I can't say I know how you're feeling and I hope I never do. hang in there and God Bless Gabe and keep him safe.


plittle said...

After you've had a few shots of Tequila, or after he has?

::ducks and runs::

::sticks head back up::

Hope Gabe, along with all of his comrades in arms, gets to come home for good real soon.

elleme2 said...

Somehow, you never completely lose your sense of humor, and that's wonderful.  Wish I could think of a way to make the days fly past 'til Gabe comes marching home again, hurrah, hurrah.  But he has lots of people praying for him and his Mom and that's gotta help.  .  

kaydeejay5449 said...

I totally enjoy your blog.  I can't remember how I found you but I've added you to my favorite places so I can come back.  You have such a great sense of humor and such a sensitive side that is endearing.  I'll be praying for your son's safe return!

sdoscher458 said...

Oh Dorn, if I could have one wish it would be to wrap my arms around the world and make all war/hatred banished forever. I know the news is not good, everywhere you look today people are turning on people for one reason or another. Gabe has a lot of people wishing him well and his Mom too..Sandi

staciedawn said...

My thoughts and prayers are with you, Gabe and your entire family, as always.  It is not funny haha but funny strange how I will probably never meet you but I worry for your son as if I have always known you.  He is always mentioned specifically in my prayers.  I just hope this war is over soon so that all our sons, daughters, friends and fellow humans can be back with their loved ones.  I do certainly appreciate all they do for me and my family.  Sending you as many hugs as my broadband will carry

bruno64056rs said...

National Nude Day, huh? Hey, whatever turns your crank! That reminds me of a story---NAWWW, I ain't even gonna start on that one! By the way, what's the first prize for the Nude Day Champion? A coupon for one FREE polyester suit, complete with a years' supply of Gold Bond rash powder??? Give Gabe a hang-in-there for me,too!!!

3's to ya all!

am4039 said...

I'm so happy you talked with Gabe and I know it must be so hard on you for him to be away.  I hope you get some sleep too. I don't sleep well at times either and it just sucks.  Don't worry I won't walk around Nude I would scare everyone.