Wednesday, February 6, 2008

Squirrellywoman

Even as I sit here trying to sort out my thoughts she is making plans.  As I wonder 'why her?' she wonders 'What next?'

I touch my breasts and wondered... is it there?  She touches hers and knows.  I try to imagine living without them.  She knows she cannot live with them and she prepares to let go.

It is her battle but she does not face it alone.   She knows this and draws strength from those of us who stand by so willingly and yet so helplessly.  We pray, oh God, we pray!  We smile, we hug, we hope and promise.  We ignore the shadows of fear and doubt that creep into the recesses of our minds.  There is no time for them, there is no place.  They are not allowed.

One cannot just 'know' a person with cancer.  It becomes a part of your life as well.  Where once it was just a word used on rare occasion, now it flies through the air with almost casual acceptance.  I do not accept it.  She does not accept it.  There is no time in our lives for it, no place.  It is not allowed.

And so, even as I sit here trying to understand, she prepares for battle.  Her bag is packed.  Her knight in shining armor is beside her while their daughters summoning up strength they probably never knew they had.  Cancer has crept into their lives and they stand together to fight it off. 

In a couple of hours her battle will really begin but she will face this enemy well armed.  This time tomorrow she should be back home again, her battle fought, her enemy vanquished, her Knight in shining armor and their daughters fussing over in a natural reversal of roles.

Get well soon Big Sis, we've got a Margarita, tea and truffles date!

23 comments:

mumma4evr said...

awww...crap!!!  praying for all good!!!!
Becky

ppavis said...

I'm so sorry! She is in my prayers!  Phyllis

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coelha said...

Hugs and  good thoughts go out to your sister and her family... Julie

deshelestraci said...

Oh Dorn.  I am so sorry.  Words are not enough.  Here's a big hug.  How is your mom doing?  

Prayers,
Traci

rbrown6172 said...

i'm really sorry to hear this.  i will be praying for her.
gina

justplainbill said...

Jodi, my prayers will go up for her. Best of everthing to her and the family, Bill

hestiahomeschool said...

Oh, this made me cry. I will pray for her. A lot.

princesssaurora said...

{{ Big Sis }}} Prayers and hugs on the way...

be well,
Dawn

astaryth said...

Oh Man... that s*cks! My thoughts are with her, her family and YOU!

helmswondermom said...

I know everything will be fine.
Our thoughts are with you.
Lori

midwestvintage said...

  Hope everything is going to be fine.  

                 Julie

swmpgrly said...

get well soon sis

rdautumnsage said...

Beautiful heartfelt post dear one....I'm keeping your sister and her family in my prayers on the smoke! (Hugs) Indigo

glensfork4 said...

Prayers going up. Heartfelt entry my friend.

Michele

jckfrstross said...

praying for your sis and family:)

Deb

motoxmom72 said...

Awwwww...what a wonderfully written, heartfelt entry.  Saying prayers for  your Big Sis!
*Hugs*
Gina

ambassadorsinte said...

Mom and Dad says AMEN to that..Got that wonderful phone call from Kenn that all went well and the doctors are satisfied that all will be okay now. She'll be okay.(without one) albeit. And before she had only one nurse daughter, but now looks lije she has a handful PLUS!
Keep them Margaritas & Truffles handy.

promiseluv372 said...

OMG hun I'm so sorry but she is in my prayers.. it's a battle but one that can be won!!  Know that!
My prayers are with you also!  I know what my sister is going through!


Love you!
Promise

sdoscher458 said...

My thoughts and prayers are with you and yours. Surround them with love and laughter (the best medicine)...(((Dorn)))...love, Sandi

mutualaide said...

Jodie, under the lousy circumstances, I found this entry to be so lovingly written.  Thank you for sharing and know that she will remain in my prayers.  

cyn4mc2856 said...

A wonderful, heartfelt entry.  I'm sorry to learn of your Sister's battle, and my prayers will be for her to win the war.  It's comforting to know she has such love and support; which, I'm sure means the world to her.

Rembering you and yours in thought and prayer,

Cindy

glopsey said...

Hope she heals up quick! Best wishes, and don't forget the salt!

Sara
http://journals.aol.com/glopsey/thelovebug

lacaza3 said...

I went through breast cancer with my dear friend cecy I belive you have read my entreies about her when I started my journal..It is hard.and it turns your world upside down..my love is with you and your friend
Donna In tEXAS
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