Monday, March 28, 2005

NOW WHAT?

My fingers are so waterlogged from washing dishes that they are sloshing on the keyboard. Now I remember why I like paper plates so much. The worst thing about not keeping up with your dirty dishes is that after a few days what ever is on them tends to metamorphisize into something so completely unidentifiable and disgusting that you can't believe it was once edible. The good thing is... if you wait a few more days it will completely dry up and chip off, making clean up so much easier.   I have also rediscovered the fact that I hate washing dishes.  After tonight there will be no more eatting in this house!  I am retiring from dish washing!

Its weird not having any routine.  I look around the house and its almost over whelming how much hope is riding on my constant presence.  I'm scared... I'm terrified!  I was so confident that I would give up my career and save the family.  Now I'm not so sure I can do it.  I will do my best, I will give it my all.  But what if its not good enough?  Then what?  This is all I have, and all I am.  What if I can't do it?  There is nothing left for me to quit, no secret weapons, no Plan B, no magic fix-alls.  There is so much riding on me.  I've helped to run a multimillion dollar store, and did it well, but can I run my own home and family?  Steve has so much faith in me, the kids are so happy to be with me... and me?  I've never been so unsure of myself as a parent.   Thank goodness for Dust Bunnies.  At least I know they'll always be here for me.  Nope, thats one thing that isn't going to change around here... LONG LIVE THE DUST BUNNIES!

14 comments:

lacaza3 said...

Yes it is overwelming...I miss structure...I'm lazy my nature...
and you cant say well I have to go to work so I cant do it you have no excuse HA!!
Donna In TEXAS

sdoscher458 said...

Have faith baby! Momma's are never wrong!  You can make fab dinners, get projects going with the kids...spring is here - plant something...maybe something you can grow & eat...kids love that...there is so much you can do...you are an excellent writer, start a kid's story or something....oh so much to do and not enough time.....get going....toodles...Sandi  http://journals.aol.com/sdoscher458/LifeIsFullOfSurprises

mumma4evr said...

Passing the bon-bons.....You will do just  fine...just remember to leae the  Dust Bunnies alone and have your required does of bon-bons and all will be good!
Becky

amy122389 said...

What?  There's ALWAYS a Plan B!  Plan B is....Pretend you know what you're doing...that way nobody knows you're doubting yourself.  Kids prey on the weak!  Stay strong, Jody!!!  heh heh.....and buy paper plates. <g>

Hugs....

~Amy

sonnyclassic said...

Dorn, give it your best and you have done all you can, and that is all you CAN do and need to do.

sonnyclassic said...

Also, take it one day at a time, do a little today, a little the next, and once you get "the preliminaries" tooken care of- it will be easy routine maintnance. For eaxample, I have kept my clothes in the unised bath tub and in barrels and in usued clothes since the hurricane. I never put them back up. Just today I started putting them up. I got a majority of it done, and it took a half an hour. But after tommorow when I get the wrest put up, from then on I will jsut have to out it up by the dryer load, not all at once. So once you get it all organized, then its just daily routine maintnance.

heathyrxmarie said...

(((((((((((((((Dorn))))))))))))))) You'll ds it, I haven complete confidence in you.  Lots of hugs babe!
Xox
Heather

happysunshien said...

We ONLY use paper plates...call me lazy whatever..lol..i dont even care...I HATE TO DO DISHES!..lmao

Kelly

kissofvanity said...

I love the title of your journal.  Glad i stopped by!

Ana  ((0.~))

purplectigger said...

I know you can do it. I have faith in you. Teach the kids to wash dishes, do laundry and vacum . Then you'll have more time to do what you like to do.
LOL.
Hugs, R.C.

mzgoochi said...

DISHES?!? UGH!!!! I HATE DOING THEM!

promiseluv372 said...

Chipping the dishes clean is the norm around here, NO one can wash a dish .. they claim to be allergic to water lol.  I have missed so much in your journal,  help me if I ever go away again.  :)
Luv,
Promise

cneinhorn said...

don't you notice the more time you have, the less organized you become with it?
:-)

~JerseyGirl
www.jerseygirljournal.com

bigred3392 said...

Dust bunnies rock my socks! WHOOT!
http://journals.aol.com/bigred3392/TracysAwesomeJournalofAwesomenes