Monday, September 12, 2005

NOTHING TO LAUGH ABOUT....

Someone once remarked about my ability to find humor in just about anything, and asked if there was something that I did not find funny.  I replied 'war'.  And now, with my son just hours away from war I am finding little to laugh about.  I have tried so many times to keep a positive upbeat to this journal, but the words always turn bleak and depressing.  I have been trying for weeks to avoid the whispers that grow louder with each second, the unthinkable 'what-if's' are deafening as I reach for blissful ignorance that is no longer within my grasp.  The time has come.

As a mother I feel I must remain strong and in control.  So I tell my son to wear his fire-proof man-panties, just incase our prayers aren't answered in time.  People promise to keep him in their prayers and I am grateful for I know where he's going he'll need all the prayers he can get.  I make promises to my other children that I have no control over the outcome to, and there is no guilt.  I spout the speech of a proud and positive mother.

And I am scared to death for my son.  I have never felt more insignificant in my life.  And never have I felt less like laughing.  

God bless and God speed my son.  Be safe, be strong and hurry home. 

22 comments:

rjet33 said...

I can only imagine, Jody.  I am so sorry you are having to go through this.  My heart aches with you and for you.  I am hear if you need to talk.

Love and prayers,
Susan
http://journals.aol.com/rjet33/CountryLivingSouthernStyle

rjet33 said...

P.S.  The photo is awesome.  What a handsome couple you made and I am assuming that is baby Gabe?  Such a little doll he was and what a handsome young man he has grown into.  You have every right to be very proud.

cdittric77 said...

God's will shall be done, and with all hope and love, he shall be home to you soon.

gdireneoe said...

Dorn?  Even Emmit shed a tear or two in his day.  Your love and concern for your family is an inspiration for me...let's me know I am doing my job right.  You don't have to be the perpetual clown for us...you are real. ;)  C.  http://journals.aol.com/gdireneoe/thedailies

redpoppy007 said...

I love the photo you are a handsome couple..
I am hoping your boy comes back to you soon. My heart hurts for you and all the mothers with sons and daughters fighting for our country.

unicornsteph80 said...

My thoughts are with you and your son. I hope that he comes home safely as soon as possible.

Stephanie

plieck30 said...

Praying for God to watch over your son and to give you strength. Paula

gardenmantis said...

Blessings to you and your family.
Mary

dbp2000 said...

Dorn: I know this must be a very difficult time for you and your family but stay strong. Easier said than done, I know!  I, too, will pray for your son and his safe return.
Donna

heathyrxmarie said...

((((((((Dorn))))))) I'm here if you need me.
Lots of prayers right now.
Hugs,
xoxo
Heather

sdoscher458 said...

Dorn I love that picture. If good wishes & love can help at all you have it. I pray this next year will speed by for you....Sandi

purplectigger said...

Our prayers are with him and you. Every single day . God will take care of him.
Hugs, R.C.

jckfrstross said...

Praying for you and your family:) I know what you are going through

Deb

princesssaurora said...

I am praying for Gabe with you.  I am praying for you...mom to mom.

I am praying for peace...

love the pic, thanks for sharing.

Be well,
Dawn
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Poetry:
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chseroo said...

Not only will I keep your son in my prayers, but I will keep you in them also. This entry got me choked up. I feel for you.
***Monica
http://journals.aol.com/chseroo/LivingLifeandLovinit

globetrotter2u said...

Jodi,
I just don't know what to say. It doesn't seem fair that any mother should have to go through the anxiety that you are feeling. You know that your son is in the prayers and thoughts of so many of your friends in J-Land. If possible, take comfort from that, for prayer is very powerful.
On a postive note, I love that picture so much! I think I've seen it before on your journal, but it reflects your pride and happiness, your son's joyful nature, and a certain proud nobility in your husband's demeanor that were all caught within the camera's lens.
Keep peaceful thoughts in your heart, friend, your inner strength will get you through.
Maryanne

astaryth said...

You know you have my good thoughts and wishes for Gabe always... and you and the rest of your family.
http://journals.aol.com/astaryth/AdventuresofanEclecticMind

swmpgrly said...

I guess thats all we can do as parents in these situations.

mumma4evr said...

Dorn, please know  that i am praying for your son...and for you!!!!
Becky

sunnyside46 said...

I have no words,just loving thoughts
marti

lazarai said...

Gabe is my thoughts and will be till he returns home to you...

Carol

lilhoneybee81 said...

I will pray for him as well!

~Amber