Monday, April 17, 2006

BEAUTIFUL HEADNOISE

Yesterday a deafening silence was heard across the www.  One Girl's Headnoise faded into a final peaceful rest.  The silence, however, was short lived as one after another, friends and relatives shook their heads in disbelief and cried 'No, No, No!' over and over.  Again and again they clicked the links and re-read the messages, hoping that there had been a mistake which would be cleared up with a simple [refresh].  But the words remained unchanged.  Pamela was gone.

Many of those who now mourn were readers long before the fateful day when she, in her usual graceful honesty, announced that she had lung cancer.  Since then we have laughed with her, cried with her, encouraged her, prayed for her, trying with all our might to give her strength, hope and maybe even to cure her.  And all the while, including when she was at her weakest, she in turn gave US strength.  Even now, in her passing, we remain inspired by her courage and grace.

If prayers and wishes alone could have cured her, she would have been cured a long time ago.  Some things cannot be controlled.  This one was out of our hands and it is with great sadness and reluctance that we let go and accept that she has fulfilled her mission here.  The time has come for her to move on to a new phase in her existence.

Pamela's legacy will be how she was able to touch the very hearts and souls of her readers.  Her willingness to share such an intimate part of her life has helped other cancer patients and their families cope.  Her ability to laugh in the face of such a formidable enemy, her honesty in how she viewed life and faced death, her love for family and friends, combined to make her a truly unique human being. 

Her sweet headnoise will be forever missed but never forgotten.

"If prayers were feathers, you could fly home..."  Pam has enough feathers now and she is flying home.  God Speed my dear friend.

29 comments:

princesssaurora said...

Jody,

I knew you would make the perfect post.... I have been at a loss... I am going to put yours on my journal with a link...

be well,
Dawn

ally123130585918 said...

Such a sad loss ~ she will be missed so very much ~ for her wit ~ charm and bravery ~ Our loss is Heavens gain ~ Ally

mzgoochi said...

Dorn, that was beautiful. Since learning of Pam's passing, I have been at a loss of words. I feel so many things, anger, sadness, empty, fear, hopeless and helpless.
So many times Pamela picked me up and put me back on my feet with a smile on my face. I will miss her terribly.

God Bless her babies and help them to get through this!

Love, Lahoma

lordofbutter said...

It's a sad loss. Our loss is heaven's gain. She will be missed. May she rest in peace.

buggieboo1 said...

such a sad loss! what a nice entry to her!

Sharon

elleme2 said...

A beautiful tribute to a very special person.  Her smile never faded and neither will her memory.  

yankeeatheart79 said...

Well said Dorn!  Well said!  I gave a little tribute to Pamela in my blog as well.  She will be missed!

allthelittlethings2.blogspot.com

~Kell

ckays1967 said...

lovely...

brandyp0509 said...

Beautiful tribute Dorn.  Pam meant a great deal to many of us here in J-Land and she will be forever missed and forever loved by many.  She was grace and courage in the midst of a storm and now she is home where she is rejoycing and healthy so we all should be grateful that now there is one more watching out for so many of us.  Brandy

jcole16757 said...

Very beautiful, Dorn~

princesssaurora said...

Jody,

I wrote a poem at my other journal for Pam...

http://journals.aol.com/princesssaurora/TouchofEmpathy/

be well,
Dawn

karensull12 said...

This is beautiful...I found a poem somewhere called What Cancer Can't Do...the author is unknown.  

It can not cripple love.
It can not shatter hope.
It can not corrode faith.
It can not eat away peace.
It can not destroy confidence.
It can not kill friendship.
It can not shut out memories.
It can not silence courage.
It can not invade the soul.
It can not reduce eternal life.
It can not quench the spirit.
It can not lessen the power of God

redbaranjj said...

A very beautiful entry, for a very beautiful lady.  She will greatly missed.

Julie

deshelestraci said...

I hadn't heard this awful news until I read it on your blog.  I am so shocked and saddened.  Wonderful tribute.
Traci

jckfrstross said...

What a wonderful tribute:) yes Pam will be missed. And you put this so gracefully thank you

Deb

oceanmrc said...

This is a beautiful tribute.
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astaryth said...

Beautiful! You've said all of the things that I would have liked to. I want to write something, but nothing seems to come to me that would offer the honor that she deserved. She was such a special lady. You did good!
http://journals.aol.com/astaryth/AdventuresofanEclecticMind
http://adventuresofaneclecticmind.blogspot.com

andreakingme said...

I loved this. I hope her family gets to read it.

redbird914 said...

That was simply a beautiful tribute my dear!

am4039 said...

I'm so sorry about Pam.

taylorkl1102 said...

I to can not believe Pam is gone. We had a few scares before when long periods of time would pass with no word from her then all of a sudden she'd write a few words to let us know she was still around and fighting.  I went to her journal today still hoping this was a mistake and there would be something from her.  God bless you Pam your suffering has ended.
Kathy

lrttklly said...

This is truly a loss.
So very sorry and so sad.
-Loretta

sdoscher458 said...

Thank you Dorn, this was a beautiful tribute to someone with a beautiful soul. I didn't really know Pam that well, but I know how loved she was.  She will be missed......Sandi

chadandjen1216 said...

Pam's was the first blog I had ever read.  I remember I could not believe how open she was with her life and I admired her writing, her wit, her honesty.  In fact her blog is how I found your blog dorn, and so many more.  She was an inspiration and I wish her friends and family love and strength.  Her words will live on in our hearts forever.

globetrotter2u said...

Dorn,

THis was so beautifully written. Pam was the person who was kind enough to send me instructions on how to upload pictures to my AOL blog. That was eons ago when you and I first started blogging. She always had time to help someone. She never tired of giving others inspiration up to her dying day, as her journal shows.

She is now free from pain and suffering and for that we must find comfort.

Maryanne

swibirun said...

Perfect, Dorn.  Thank you for saying it for everyone.

Chris

deabvt said...

Beautifully written.
Thanks,
V
http://deabvt.blogspot.com/

wumzels2 said...

i am still in disbelief, but know she is finally at peace.  what a loving and beautiful tribute, dorn.

regina

mystafymeal4me said...

Im shocked < I didnt know anything about it .. thank you for this entry it is very sad......I guess ive been away while....
Now she is reating with no pian .